June 23, 2008

This and that

I have been encumbered by some heavy clouds of thoughts hovering over my head. It had to eventually rain. And what better place to rain it on than my fertile blog.

  • Saw Tashan a few days back. I don't see why there's a big hue and cry about 'Size Zero' (courtesy Bebo). I can't fathom what's so cool about looking like a stick? A woman should look like a woman. This is not to say that people should start gorging on food and building on their fat. What's so difficult about promoting the middle-ground? I firmly believe that people should go for a healthy body, not anorexia or obesity.
  • Sarkar Raj had me thinking. It was a bit different, a bit slow, and very RGV-ery. The question of displacing 40,000 people for the greater good of crores of other people is one worth pondering deeper. Is it moral/acceptable to completely destroy a village to save a country? If, in the future, it becomes necessary to sacrifice a country for the greater good of the rest of the world, is it moral to proceed thus? How can one define morality pertaining to these questions? The final answer, perhaps is 'survival of the fittest'. Sometimes, a species can be fitter than another by their sheer volume and number. So, the rest of the world effectively becomes fitter than any country singled out. Also, I remember reading in a book by Robert Pirsig (Lila, I think), that the more evolved a being is, the less moral it becomes to kill/destroy its existence. It is more moral to kill a chicken than a cow, and a bug than a chicken. Perhaps, it is also more moral to destroy a village than a city.
  • The weather's pretty here around this time. Rain, wind, clouds. And then, a city cleansed. The feeling of getting completely drenched in the rains, streams of water dripping down, caressing your body. Then wiping your face for a clear vision. Slipping across the muddy ground for an ambitious tackle. Peace.
  • Federer lost to Nadal in the French Open. Beauty lost to brute force, and that too in a humiliating manner. Everyone seemed to want beauty to win, but force fought like a wounded lion, even though it was the one who was wounding the other! More than the physical weakness it was his mental weakness that defeated Federer. Perhaps, he needs the kind of mental strength that some other greates I admire are made of - Schumacher and Kasparov. It is not just perfect skills that makes a sportsperson perfect, but needs a mental strength that can back up the skills, and the pressure it entails.
(P.S.- had written the post earlier but had left it un-posted)

June 13, 2008

First 35 to familiarity

  • I think I can control my anger. And that makes me nervous.
  • Sometimes, when things don't go my way, I try to think it is all a joke. But it doesn't seem so funny even when I try.
  • I suck at keeping in touch with people.
  • I have no explanation for that.
  • I would prefer a quiet night in a park to a party with a multitude of people.
  • I think life has been quite fair to me till now. It makes me scared.
  • I think no one knows who/what I am.
  • I am a better listener than a talker.
  • I could kill for a good conversation.
  • Telling people about myself makes me feel vulnerable. But not so much when i get to know as much about them.
  • I dont know why I am writing this.
  • Maybe to know myself better.
  • But others may know about me.
  • Anyway, it doesn't matter. Not many will read this.
  • I am hungry.
  • I am lazier than most people. My laziness is my biggest, well, negative point.
  • I seldom fall sick. But I dont think I am healthy anymore.
  • Choices confuse me. I'd rather have one or no choice than multiple ones.
  • I think I am quite selfish. I want to be more selfish.
  • Most books I read are after receicing recommendations from people. But the best books I have read are some that have not been recommended by anyone.
  • If I analyze my life in 5 phases of 5 years each, I might look like a different person in each phase.
  • This shit is difficult to write.
  • I have lost touch with music. I have no plans to revive my relationship with music.
  • I wish I could do something creative and sustain myself with it.
  • I dont like being told what to do. I might even decide not to do it just because someone tells me to do it.
  • I dont like telling people what to do either.
  • Humor is what I adore most in a person.
  • To be Frank, I need to change my name.
  • I want to end this list, but don't know how to.
  • Something clinching, enlightening, amusing. Something that can end this list.
  • Hmm.
  • I have to end this with a cliche. Sorry to disappoint you. But I cant think of anything else.
  • So...
  • I was here.
  • So was [put your name here].

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